Two Things

Hard does not always equal bad, and I’m here to tell you, there’s nothin’ truer.

Did you know that two utterly different things can be simultaneously true?

It’s possibly the wildest mental gymnastic, that I’ve realized, is becoming quite familiar.

The ability to feel distraught and grateful, perfectly content and bewildered, excitement and dread… abundant happiness and great sadness… all at once?

That’s how it feels to be in this season.

Confusing?

Definitely.  

I’m totally awestruck at the amazing way my little family has settled into this life we are creating. Moving with the ebbs and flows that never cease. Seemingly a flooded uphill-streamed swim that we’ve embarked on. Exhausted to the core, yet we keep paddling forward.

The feeling of displacement & stress are fervently countered with the beauty of being surrounded by Creation, provision, and supportive community. With a greater marital love and deeper connection than I’ve ever known.

Yet, I haven’t discovered what the feeling is called when you’re ready to be “home”, without a home to call your own yet. And I’m struggling with the deep innate desire to nest for our unborn baby, not knowing entirely how that will look, as we will be bouncing from one location to another to avoid the cold of winter.

Trying so hard to be content with the unknown & looking forward to having a sweet baby join us on this crazy ride. To only further enrich the story that we are writing. Keenly aware of the memory this is all going to create for that “someday you’ll look back on this” conversation….

But y’all - right smack in the middle of it, it’s tough. Truly tough.

So, while we continue to march forward building our home, living in a trailer, approaching winter, and awaiting another child’s earthly arrival, if you so happen to catch us on your mind - please pray for our peace and strength. We continually ask the Father if this is the direction our family should move in and repeatedly receive the answer “Yes, go forth”. Onward we go. Towards a sweeter dream and harder life of simplicity and discipline.

Kingdom work. Humbling work. Deep and raw goodness.

Hard does not always equal bad, and I’m here to tell you there’s nothin’ truer. And there’s great news with that - we do not have to do it alone.